Power of the Cross

How is it no matter how much we try, we still feel like a failure?
Why is it that despite all of God’s power, I feel surrounded by evil and despair?

Why is it no matter how much I pray I feel week and unworthy?
How can it be when I know Christ’s shield surrounds me I feel the evil is trying to eat me? ...

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This painting was inspired by my feelings of sadness when I am down. As a matter of fact, I was delayed in completing it sooner by a recent situation that left me hurt and unable to paint. Call it a panic disorder or perhaps dehydration... I don’t know, but I feel like the devil is constantly attacking me, be it physical and or mental.

Am I saved? I always thought so. I want to be saved and I want to do God’s will. Why do these things happen? Why do I feel like the darkness is constantly eating away at my soul? ... Oh Lord, please help me, I just don’t know what to do....

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Back to this painting. It shows a young man kneeling and praying for Christ to save him and help him. What is his situation? Only God knows. Though you can see the demons trying to kill him, only to be stopped by God’s power. You notice how strong the shield is, how it keeps away the creatures of the dark? When we see things through spiritual eyes or from God’s point of view, God is SO much stronger. Yet, when we are in our flesh or try to feel our way through things, it can be so intimidating and scary. Like walking through a dark shadow blind. All one can do is pray for the Lord’s help, and that the Holy Spirit may give us spiritual eyes and help us through the dark times when we are surrounded.

You notice how the painting is set in a public school? No? ... Well yes. A very worldly secular public school focused on their character education and swim team.... Such a place where Christ’s word is put in a back corner and the demons thrive on the destruction of young children. A pit of snakes I’d say, where things can be so subtle it’s hard to defend yourself and you don’t know what to do. Which is where we find this lad, in a heap of despair and alone. With Christ protecting him even though things seem so scary.

I thank God for the Cross, and what Christ did for me. Least I be trapped forever, and never being able to escape from those evil monsters that wish to devour me. I am full of sin, I am so sorry for what wrong I do. (I feel my sins cawing on my back. ) I pray that the Lord protect me and keep my mind from evil so I do not walk out of Christ’s protection and fall into the darkness’s trap.

Did I ramble on too much? I hope that made sense. It’s late here and I’m rushed for time. Well, I hope you all had a fantastic Easter! I pray that you are all doing well and a blessing for all who read through this.

Godspeed,
~MO